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It's been almost a year since I wrote something in here.. and those last couple of posts were automatic updates from my phone, linked with twitter (or something of that sort)

I write in a paper journal when I'm feeling lonely.. disheveled.. upset.. full of rage.. usually any feeling other than happiness. That's a lie. I've written when I've been happy. Sometimes I reread old pages and laugh at myself, or smack myself in the head. It's great though, I keep it under the front seat of my car. Go read it, you'll get a peak into my jumbled up, mixed up, nonsensical mind.

I don't know why I'm even posting an update! I think I just like to type. I like to write on paper too--keep my beautiful penmanship skills sharp.

I miss my dreads so much, I never thought it would be this way. I need my hair to grow grow grow so I can get them again. 95% of my friends/family/whatever will be upset, but I don't care. It's been about 10 months since they've been gone and I think about them every day !!
I just got a new job demoing sausages on the weekend at food stores, but I need to wear a baseball cap, so I think it would be fine to start dreads.. they can hide under the hat. And I feel like I'm going to be watching the kids for at least another 2 years, so 'real job' issues aren't issues yet.